unsure for now?

I've been thinkin' about it...
for awhile now...
still I am...
unsure...for now...

I've been tryin' to build up confidence...
for awhile now...
still I sit...
unsure...for now...

I used to write more...
a lot more...
than I have been...
though...I have never considered myself a writer...
always been unsure about that...
and I remain...
unsure for now...

And yes...
I usually feel uncomfortable with the constraints society places on this language...
others seem to think they own it...
and I feel bound...sometimes...
because when I allow myself any small amount of free expression...
I feel...
unsure...
insecure in my ability to truly relate to other people...
and we all want to relate...I am no different...
but to who?...I must ask myself...

perhaps...
if you don't "get" what I am saying...
my message isn't intended for you...

perhaps if you don't like how I write...
it's you who should stop reading...
and not I who should stop typing...

Hopefully...
as I express my thoughts more...
I will become sure....

we'll see...